Forever
Emotional Abyss
Remembering
smites my soul and will for eternity
The day I
had to decide that it was your time to die
To trust
those that said you had little time left
To decide
my selfishness versus no suffering for you, then for evermore
Haunting
and wrenching and the tears still come
The guilt
still, the guilt will, always be there even tho’ you could not speak
I try and
comfort myself in the wee hours, suddenly awake
I relive
that moment and my anguish during your wake
We are
not taught how to live and I make endless mistakes
We are
not taught how to die but there is reason or faith
How can
we imagine, I certainly could not fathom
How does
one reconcile making a decision that no other should have to?
So you’ve
gone and I have to focus that it saved you suffering
For is
love not to do what is the best always for you?
Love is
the protection of value
Love is
never sacrifice or emotion but always that which is true
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