Wilderness

Wilderness

Do I resist or find my faith in this life’s mist?

Reason and faith that colliding earthly twist

Questions asked and answers discovered in confusion

Emotions torn and I’m forlorn

I look around at the crowd as it bustles for the holidays shop

I’m the invisible sadness, here but not seen because forgot

Is this wretched self-pity that forces itself on top?

You see the dichotomy of hopeful faith and hopeless emotion?

Again, sometimes confusion and then persistent frustration

Physical feels that raise optimism for a momentary smile

A reasoned thought that realizes reality has no favored morality

My long sigh as I see both sides of humanity’s nature fractured viscerally

So cry in my arms and let me kiss you with sweet dreams

That’s all you’ll have, for true happiness can never be the round circle

Your savior regardless of faith or reason is the one that loves your soul

For some like me that’s an improbable goal